Summer 2010.

A little more than three years ago, about May 2010, I first joined team I’m currently working with. Looking three years back, I’m amazed by how much my life has changed and how much I endured during these three years. This song – Suppose I Told The Truth by Crippled Black Phoenix – was with me almost the entire time. A few lines kept coming back, and man, they had a certain expectation, almost demand, in them…

I want to reign like my brothers
Command my own ways

I wish I could say that I can’t quite pinpoint the catalyst that caused that summer to stir my life, turn it upside down and send me on a journey I never dreamed of. I wish, but I know it was certain kind of liquor which shall remain unnamed today as not to tempt others. As much as it caused me to open up to the world – it also, over time, caused a dependency and wreaked much havoc over me, my friends, relationship, work and health.

Three years later, and here I am. Three years of self-discovery, troubled relationships, therapy, excessive drinking and subsequent recovery, corporate jobs, experimental unemployment, spontaneous travels, and so much experience it will last me for years. Three years later I’ve come to realize the dark part of my journey is over.

I’ve never felt this good in my entire life. And not just good – but also confident that this will last.

Thought release valve

Standing at the bus stop today, watching the rain fall, cursing the delays and trying not to get mad at things that are out of my control I had a little revelation about posting on Facebook (or Twitter, for that matter) whenever you think or feel anything.

Consider this: you’re late to work, soaked in rain, cold and angry. What better idea than to vent your frustration on Facebook? It’s not just about anger: you just thought something clever? Why not post it? Feeling sad and lonely? Here, have some relief, post a status. Does that sound familiar?

By mindlessly posting stuff online, you let thoughts out of your head. In exchange for some relief or fun you expel from your head and waste a perfectly good thought that, with some work, could become a positive change in your life. No matter if that’s a feeling of sadness or anger, a clever idea or something funny, your thoughts are like seed. Keep them planted in your head and let them grow – don’t just throw them away whenever they appear.