{"id":2734,"date":"2018-01-07T00:44:25","date_gmt":"2018-01-06T23:44:25","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/?p=2734"},"modified":"2018-01-07T00:44:25","modified_gmt":"2018-01-06T23:44:25","slug":"warsaw-jean","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/2018\/01\/07\/warsaw-jean\/","title":{"rendered":"Warsaw \/ Jean"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s hard to communicate. It&#8217;s easy to escape. It&#8217;s even easier to rage aimlessly. I&#8217;m trying to be a good person, and it scarcely works. The only thing that&#8217;s reliable is therapy; I&#8217;ve reached the dreamed-of point where I can voluntarily invite madness into my head instead of hopelessly trying to stave it away. I miss the not-so-long-ago time when we shot <a href=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/2017\/05\/06\/the-understanding-of-god\/\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">the understanding of god<\/a> &#8211; even though I don&#8217;t miss the despair of that time. I know that no matter what happens, I&#8217;ll be okay.<\/p>\n<p>I am making my own destiny; I have become the captain. I feel like I&#8217;m re-learning how to live, all anew. Everything is strange and weird, but at least now I can answer <em>why<\/em>.<\/p>\n<p>At least when I get stuck, I get to <i>unstuck<\/i> myself.<\/p>\n<div id='gallery-1' class='gallery galleryid-2734 gallery-columns-1 gallery-size-medium'><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-01.jpg' title=\"\" data-rl_title=\"\" class=\"rl-gallery-link\" data-rl_caption=\"\" data-rel=\"lightbox-gallery-1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"477\" src=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-01-720x477.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-01-720x477.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-01-1280x848.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-01.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-02.jpg' title=\"\" data-rl_title=\"\" class=\"rl-gallery-link\" data-rl_caption=\"\" data-rel=\"lightbox-gallery-1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"477\" src=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-02-720x477.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-02-720x477.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-02-1280x848.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-02.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-03.jpg' title=\"\" data-rl_title=\"\" class=\"rl-gallery-link\" data-rl_caption=\"\" data-rel=\"lightbox-gallery-1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"477\" src=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-03-720x477.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-03-720x477.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-03-1280x848.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-03.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-04.jpg' title=\"\" data-rl_title=\"\" class=\"rl-gallery-link\" data-rl_caption=\"\" data-rel=\"lightbox-gallery-1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"477\" src=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-04-720x477.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-04-720x477.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-04-1280x848.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-04.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure><figure class='gallery-item'>\n\t\t\t<div class='gallery-icon landscape'>\n\t\t\t\t<a href='https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-05.jpg' title=\"\" data-rl_title=\"\" class=\"rl-gallery-link\" data-rl_caption=\"\" data-rel=\"lightbox-gallery-1\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"720\" height=\"477\" src=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-05-720x477.jpg\" class=\"attachment-medium size-medium\" alt=\"\" srcset=\"https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-05-720x477.jpg 720w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-05-1280x848.jpg 1280w, https:\/\/kosma.pl\/diaries\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/2017-06-A-05.jpg 2048w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 720px) 100vw, 720px\" \/><\/a>\n\t\t\t<\/div><\/figure>\n\t\t<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s hard to communicate. It&#8217;s easy to escape. It&#8217;s even easier to rage aimlessly. I&#8217;m trying to be a good person, and it scarcely works. The only thing that&#8217;s reliable is therapy; I&#8217;ve reached the dreamed-of point where I can voluntarily invite madness into my head instead of hopelessly trying to stave it away. 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